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2009-03-11T05:09:56Z

Meme

2009-02-03T04:28:35Z

In reply to uchihirokilove

Rules: Copy to your own LJ, erase my answers, enter yours, and ~~tag 10 people~~. I don't know 10 people on LJ, so I will be tagging no one and everyone :P Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real . . . nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

01. What is your name: Debby
02. A four letter word: Date
03. A boy's name: Daniel
04. A girl's name: Daisy
05. An occupation: Doctor
06. A color: Dark Blue
07. Something you wear: Dress
08. A food: Dango
09. Something found in the bathroom: Deodorant
10. A place: Downtown
11. A reason for being late: Drunk
12. Something one shouts: DARN!
13. A movie title: Dawn of the Dead
14. Something you drink: Dr. Pepper
15. A musical group: DBSK
16. An animal: Dog
17. A street name: Davis
18. A type of car: Dodge
19. The title of a song: Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Ni Natte Shimattandarou

Tag, you're it!! ALL OF YOU :D

Alone in a crowd of people

2008-05-14T06:32:48Z

I can feel the darkness creeping in. It claws at the corners of my mind. It beckons me in, to go where I have gone before. I wonder how long I can fight it. How long will my heart ache? How long before I'm gone? The darkness clouds my mind, making me wish it would all just go away; wish that I could just go away... Is this what it's like to lose a friend? Perhaps...I don't recall. The sadness tears at my heart, and yet I know I have to go on. Why do I not care? Where is my family? Where is my friends? Why do I feel so alone? What does it matter that he left me? Why do I care? The pain keeps me awake at night, asleep in my mind. To be far away from here, that is what I wish. To be far away from here... But life goes on, does it not? One day it will end. One day...

not really an update

2005-09-05T21:18:49Z

Sorry pplz but this isn't really an update. Since my LJ is mainly to rant bout stuff and I don't really have anything to complain bout right now there won't be much of anything until probably school starts. Actually I'm going to a family reunion soon so most likely I will have tons of things to whine bout when I get back on the 16th hehe. To keep yourselves entertained til then feel free to check out my xanga under "LilTT" or my myspace under "Kepi_Gurl". Laterz!

hmmm

2005-07-26T02:08:53Z

:( I dunno why I feel so bleh all of a sudden. Summer hasn't been all that bad so far. I was actually enjoying it for the most part. I just came back from Cali this past Saturday. The church conference thingy (Hoi Dong) was pretty good. There were some bad moments but it was good overall. I even got back in time to pick up book 2 of the Anita Blake series before the library returned it to the self or put it on the hold shelf for whoever is in line after me. Actually I just finished the book this morning. Now I'm kinda sad though. No particular reason why I suppose. It could be all the cleaning we've been doing today. I had to help carry the couch into my parents' room and then out again cause my mom decided she wanted the big couch in there only we couldn't get the big couch in so we had to put the small one in again. Very tiring stuff, couches. 'lisha's suppose to have the week off from work but she hasn't emailed or called or anything to hang out. Perhaps I'm sad bout that. I mean I haven't seen her since Christmas. Some b/f huh. but then again I haven't seen 'sten since June last year... Maybe I'm just bored or the whole staying-with-my-grandparents-for-the-last-2-1/2-weeks-is-Hell thing is still lingering around. *shrugs* who knows. My current goal is to lose 10 lbs by September. I think being 110 would be kinda unhealthy for me but I'm getting really tired of my relatives hinting at me being fat. Plus we're going on a cruise so I suppose I'd just regain all the weight or something so it's ok? Dad's still in Vietnam so it's been quieter round here but David is becoming rather like him so it's kinda like he's still here. It's kinda annoying and makes me mad how lazy he is, seriously, we just got back late Saturday night and he went out the next day with his friends. It's like he didn't even care we were gone all that time. Owellz.

Not so much to rant bouts

2005-07-11T22:46:34Z

Sorry I haven't been updating this much. Since I consider this my ranting journal there hasn't been too much to rant bout that's worth writing about so...yea. I'm currently in Cali on a church conference thingy. It's been pretty good. Got to hang out with old friends, meet a couple new ones too. Sure there are things I could go on about here hehe. I find myself annoyed by alot these days but I'm in a good mood right now so I don't really feel like complaining. Maybe laterz when I get back to WA. I'm on someone else's comp right now, while they are sleeping muhahaha. So yea ttyl!

roommates and moving

2005-06-06T05:34:41Z

Grrrr my roommate sucks so bad *frowns and glares at nothing* Stupid baka wouldn't decide on when she was going to move out so I went ahead and signed up for a check out time for myself. I figured she'd move out Thursday night so I signed up for Friday 2:45pm Well as it goes if your the first out you get a deferred checkout cause the last person to move out gets to clean up the room and everything and have the checkout inspection. Well just my luck but when I got back from my visit home today I noticed she signed up for 7pm Friday which means I will be the first out and she'll be the last. This doesn't seem like a big deal right? Wrong! I had to sign up for the deferred checkout last Friday but since I didn't I get to pay a fine for improper checkout procedures. She's a freaken moron. I know she did it just cause she's too baka to figure out how to do a freaken deferred checkout either that or she was too lazy to go downstairs and tell the front counter she was checkin out first. Dumb, stupid, freak!! It isn't fair that I have to pay a stupid fee just cause she's stupid and wouldn't decide when she was going to check out. This makes me so mad cause now I can't concentrate on my stupid studying. FREAK!! I have a final tomorrow morning and I can't concentrate on crap. And to make matters worse one of my clustermates ate the candy I bought for the party Thursday. ~_~' Now I have to go buy more. I miscalculated and I actually don't have that much money left on my food card. Guess I'll have to eat less this week so I can go buy more food and junk... *sighs* I'm going at least attempt to study. I need to get at least a 2.0 in this class... This is going to be a looooooong night...

guilty conscience

2005-06-03T00:33:01Z

Listening to Christian music always puts me in a kinda contemplative state. Makes me kinda sad... I just don't understand God. I suppose I'm not really suppose to but still. I mean I know I'm not some horrible person, I don't kill or smoke or any of that, but sometimes I still think my sins are just as bad. I guess it's cause I grew up in a Christian family so it's like I should know better. Actually I do know better which is why it always feel bad about doing the things I do. Not like feeling bad ever stopped me heh. Sometimes I hate myself. What ever happened to me?? I just don't get it. Where did I go? Am I just a Sunday Christian now? I don't think so... I mean yea I stop doing all that outward showing of being a Christian but I don't feel any further from God. Course ppl will just say it isn't suppose to be based on "feelings" but you know what, I would think I would know my own relationship with God better than others. Maybe mine's not the same as others. Whatever. I guess I'm just ramblin bout nuthin hehe. I was just listening to Indescribable by Chris Tomlin an one of the lines got to me. Something about "You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same" I just don't get Him. Why would should He love us at all?? It doesn't make any sense but I guess it isn't suppose to. My God is awesome. I love Him but at the same time I can't help but despise the fact that I really had no choice in the matter. I've always been a Christian and I suppose I always will be one no matter how much I wish I could be like everyone else I can never turn my back on Him. I also hate Him cause He does love me unconditionally and I know I don't deserve it... I suppose that doesn't make sense or people disagree with me, try to start a fight or something. People love to do that you know, get on my case cause I'm not the "perfect Christian" they expect me to be. No one's perfect, if I was I wouldn't need God, wouldn't need Heaven now would I. I really dislike those holier-than-thou pplz. *sighs* I still got to get back to my Philosophy term pp Grrrr I hate papers. They suck :P ... Well I best be off, gotta get it done today!

am I dumb or am I dumb?

2005-05-24T06:35:33Z

Well school is winding down. I got like 3 wks left of school. You all know what that means papers and finals >.< Well like it said am I dumb or am I dumb? I got an English paper due this Thursday of which I still don't understand the wrting prompt and thus haven't started, a bunch of reading including catching up with my history reading b4 the final(I'm like 10 chapters behind or something ~_~'), Writing my Philosophy term paper of which I still haven't gotten around to even looking at the requirements for, and of course studying for my finals. You all know what I've been doing instead of all this work?? Reading Inuyasha and Yugioh fanfics *sweatdrop* I'm crazy I know. I want to spend every weekend doing hw rather than relaxing and chillin with friends and I want to keep staying up late into the night writing and reading crap because I procrastinate all the time. If you all can't tell I'm being sarcastic :P Actually I am still procrastinating since I'm typing this rather than reading my philosophy stuff for lecture tomorrow. I just finished the take home quiz we had. I don't like it, it was worded funny and I'm sure I got alot of it wrong, stupid trick questions... Well yea now I gotta get back to it. I'd rather not stay up later than I have to and I definately don't want to have Rachel breathing down my neck waiting for me to turn off my light and go to sleep. Bye pplz!

AHHHH

2005-05-18T21:45:46Z

I'm such an idiot! I can't believe I got my days mixed up GHA! *bangs her head on the table* My history paper is dued tomorrow NOT Friday. I have yet to start on it. Currently I am eating my lunch which is giving me hiccups cause I'm eating rather fast hoping to have time to work on my paper before I have to go to my honor society induction >.< Don't ask. I stayed up til 1am last nite working on the outline for my paper. I know that doesn't seem that late but I didn't want to push it. My roommate gets kinda cranky if I work at night cause then there's lights on and I guess the keyboard clicking...I dunno. I mean I get it if I am bothered by HER but she has an eye mask and ear plugs so I dunno how either the light or noise bothers her not to mention she sleeps facing the other way ~_~' I'm so glad I have my own room next year. I still have no idea whts wrong with my comp but I've fig out a way to not have to keep restarting my comp everytime I use it. Now when I close the lid it goes to hibernation not stand by so I just push the power button and it loads to where I left off last time ^_^ I got sick again. It may have something to do with me having the desk in front of the windows and my roommate always being hot so she wants them open. It's rather drafty here but I try to put up with it as much as possible. It could also be cause she keeps putting her used tissues in MY trash can. I really hate having to sit next to a trash can full of someone else's germs but if I take it out when it isn't full yet she'll just start putting in more than that would be a waste of trash bags. I'd have to dump my trash like once a day or something ~_~' It's such a hassle to carry it down to the dumpster... Well I really gtg start on the paper. *drags herself away*

comp probs

2005-05-18T02:52:38Z

ehhh my computer hates me, I know it! I've spent all day running all these tests on it hoping it would tell me what is wrong with my comp. Unforunately it didn't work. So...I've spent all day and I still have no idea what is wrong with it. So far my probs are if I close my laptop (it should go to stand by) and reopen it the monitor stays black. I hate having to restart my comp everytime I need to use it. That can't be good to keep forcibly restarting it. Added to that is the internet either refusing to load pages or freezing. I've sent so many of those Microsoft error thingies and I still don't know why it's doing that. It took me 20 min last night just to create a LJ account >.< I mean wth?? I've wasted all day doing those tests that I didn't get to start on my history paper yet. I'm going to hate myself by Friday if I don't get this finished soon. I'm still no closer to figuring out my euthanasia presentation though ~_~' I'm suppose to come up with counter-arguements for one of the readings we did. I have no idea what possessed me to take a Philosophy class. I'm not any good at arguing anything. I think this will be my ranting journal. I'll make the xanga one a happy journal prob, so if you want to have a balanced view of me you'll prob have to read both. Yea...

1st entry woohoo...

2005-05-17T05:27:35Z

Well I rather doubt I'll be updating this much, since I already have a xanga account. If you all are really bored you can always read that one at http://www.xanga.com/LilTT If not, whatever *shrugs* I only sign up for this so to be put on someone's friends list since they made their LJ private.

Anyhoo, since I'm already here I might as well write something ne? Today was an ok day. Not too bad. I got a 4.0 on my English paper so I decided to kinda just chill for the day. Kinda a self reward system I guess. What I really should be doing is working on my "The Yellow Wallpaper" paper for my history class or working on my euthanasia presentation. But of course I'm not. I spend most of the day reading various Inuyasha fanfics and chatting a bit with various people. It's been a while since I went on AIM and MSN so busy with school. School takes alot out of me. I'm glad I only have 2 1/2 weeks left. Well maybe not glad cause I still have to start my term paper for Philosophy and then there's be finals to study for and whatnot, but you know what I mean. I'll be glad once summer comes though I don't particularly like arguing with my mom about summer jobs and staying in Cali more than I have to. As much as I love Cali I don't particularly like my relatives. Love them yes but like them no. Actually I kinda like having a LJ. Since everyone knows bout my xanga one I always feel kinda weird writing in it. Perhaps I will use this account to write whatever and just use my other one for other stuff. Or not. Who knows. Well that's it for now. I'm out!